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Dec. 4th, 2009

I think every college student goes through what I am going through right now. I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

Here's what I do know:
I know that I am with the love of my life and that Cisco is definitely the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with.
I know that my color guard days are coming to an end and I cannot wait until they do so I have more "me" time.
I know that whatever I decide to do with my life it has to be good enough to support my future lifestyle and family.
I know I want a family.

What I don't know:
I don't know that I want to be a teacher. In fact I don't know what to do at all. It seems like everything takes so much time to get into so if I ended up not liking the job I end up with it will take forever to try and switch to another job.

I'm so over school I never want to go.. actually I don't remember ever wanting to go even in grade school. :P I don't want to be a failure to society. I want to be able to afford things for my kids and husband. I'm thinking to far ahead I know. I am only 20 years old I shouldn't be worried about this kind of stuff. I should be out partying and having fun with my boyfriend and other friends. But the more I think about it. A family is what I want more then anything. I must be going through that womanly stage. It's awful.

I wish I could find the perfect job for me. Something I like doing and can make enough money to support my self.. Maybe I need to take a test that tells me what my future career should be. Maybe I'm crazy..

I'm sure one day I will figure this out.. I just hope it's not to late.. I'm always so BiPolar with my decisions. I lose motivation so quickly... what's wrong with me..

On the Bright Side... I LOVE CISCO VERY MUCH! and I couldn't be happier that we ended up together.

I do feel sorry sometimes with how I treated Mike but at the same time I think it's good we didn't work out because now he is with a girl he likes very much and I hope they last!! So it's like everything worked out for the better... Funny how things work out... I couldn't be happier...

Speaking of Cisco I need to find him the perfect christmas present and I have no idea what to get him.. hmm... I need to get on it.. I never know what kinds of things boys like to get as a present.
It needs to be something that says I love you, and your my best friend but is also boyish/manly ^_^
Maybe I'll buy him socks lol.. JK but the boy does needs some socks haha... well see...

c-ya later..- Chelle

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deadndried
Dec. 6th, 2009 09:14 pm (UTC)
Every college student usually faces that wall. School is disgusting, but due to dropping out being such a stigma, we gotta go through it. Id say saty your course, you'll figure out what you want sooner or later
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